Past Mistakes

Sometimes life just sucks!

You look back at the mistakes that you've made and ask yourself, "Was I fucking high or what?!"

But the mistakes that we make, is what makes us all human and we learn from them and to hope not to make the same mistake twice even tho someone got hurt in the process.

All we can truly say to that person who got hurt is, "I'm sorry" but I doubt that they will forgive us of our trespassing or even speak to us ever again.

We are human and yes we all make mistakes but is it truly human enough to hold it against us?

What is Beltane?

Beltane (Mayday-Rudmas) April 30-May 1
In this blog will explain to you guys what Beltane is. Plus, my Beltane Altar is at the end of this blog!

Beltane is a traditional May Day celebration of fertility, renewal, awakening & new beginnings that heralds the arrival of summer.

At this time, life is renewing itself. Birds and animals are mating. In the fields, newly planted seeds are beginning to grow. We emerge from the darkness of winter and our eyes savor emerging natural abundance… rolling green hills, budding branches and tender shoots. Love is flowering. It is a traditional time for Handfastings (bonding couples together), and a time for couples to bless the crops and the earth by making love outside. This is a time to fertilize your dreams with action, and make a fresh start.

The Maypole is an important element to Beltane festivities. it is a tall pole decorated with long brightly colored ribbons and flowers. As dancers revolve around the base of the pole, interweaving the ribbons, a colorful pattern emerges that symbolizes union in community. We are those colors, woven in a interlocking web of amazing diversity, more fabulous together than apart. Beltane is a time to create new connections and renew familiar ones.

It is said that at Beltane the veils between the worlds grows thin… allowing the Faeries return from their winter respite, carefree and full of faerie mischief and faerie delight.

How does one celebrate Beltane? Form a wreath of freshly picked flowers, wear it in your hair, and feel yourself radiating joy and beauty. Dress in bright colors. Smile and give away flowers to strangers. Dance the Maypole and feel your connections with community grow stronger. Bless your garden in the old way by making love with your lover in it. Make a wish as you jump a bonfire for good luck. Welcome in the May with lots of singing and dancing!


My Beltane Altar

Forgiveness

Forgiveness isn't an easy thing, some would say that it’s the hardest of all situations but so is a break-up. Those two go hand in hand and if you put both of them together, they can be very dangerous combo.

But can you really forgive someone who has sinned in the wrong way by accident? I guess it all depends on the person and the situation, really.

I have sinned in more ways then you could think of and the one person that I have sinned on, is hurt by all of this and I really hope that he could forgive me but the ball is in his court now and whatever choice he makes

I have to accept it. Even though, the choice he will make in the end, if it is a break-up, it would be very fucking hard because I don’t want to loose him, I care about him and even love him.

I always seem to make the wrong choices growing up, especially in high school, although I would have to say, a sin like this, it is my first offence and I have never even remotely done anything like this before.

He said that everybody, at some point in their life; will sin the way I have sinned. I wish that I could go back in time and not have sinned but what’s done is done and I really hope we can work this out and not break-up.

I am sorry for my sin and please forgive me, don’t write me off just yet…

Mistakes

Everybody tells me that I have to grow up and I now know that, but growing up, is a lot harder than you think.

You have to fend for yourself and rely solely on you and nobody else.

The mistakes that you’ve made helps you become a better person and learn from those mistakes.

But what if you never learn from those mistakes? What if you wind up making the same mistake as last time?

Maybe you will learn as soon as something happens to you. I have made my mistakes and obviously I haven’t learned from them because I’m right back to where I have started in same exact spot. I might loose someone and I might gain something.

These are the mistakes that we all must learn from and knowing that others have made the same mistakes, hopefully we all can learn from them and not make that same mistake.

I have dug my grave and I shall forever walk in that graveyard alone for all eternity. I am destined to always be a screw up and never learn from my mistakes…

Yule Log Cookies Recipe

Ingredients:

o       1/2 cup brown sugar, firmly packed

o       3 Tbsp. butter or margarine, softened

o       1 egg

o       1 cup all-purpose flour

o       1/2 tsp. baking powder

o       1/2 tsp. ground cardamom

o       1/4 tsp. baking soda

o       1/4 tsp. ground cinnamon

o       1/4 tsp. ground cloves

o       1/4 tsp. ground allspice

o       1/4 tsp. ground nutmeg

o       Red and green decorator icing

Directions:

1.      Preheat oven to 375°.

2.      In a medium bowl, beat the brown sugar and margarine until blended.

3.      Add the egg; beat until well blended.

4.      Lightly spoon flour, baking powder, baking soda, and spices; mix well.

5.      Divide the dough in half.

6.      On a lightly floured surface, roll each half of dough with your hands to make two 10 1/2 inch logs; flatten slightly to 1 1/4 inches in diameter.

7.      With a spatula, place the logs 2 to3 inches apart on an un-greased cookie sheet.

8.      Dip a non-serrated knife in water; score each log diagonally at 3/4 inch intervals.

9.      Bake for 11 to 13 minutes, or until set and no longer moist.

10.  Cool for 5 minutes.

11.  With a serrated knife, cut the logs at the scored lines.

12.  Cool completely.

13.  Decorate each cookie with decorator icing to resemble a holly leaf and berries.

Yule Moon Cookies Recipe

Ingredients:

o       1 cup butter

o       1 1/4 cup sugar

o       2 tsp. grated lemon peel

o       1/4 tsp. salt

o       1 1/3 cup flour

o       1 1/2 cup grated almonds (blanched)

o       1 tsp. vanilla

Icing:

o       2 cups sifted confectioner's sugar

o       1 tsp. vanilla

o       2 1/2 Tbsp. water

Directions:

1.      Cream together butter and sugar until fluffy and light.

2.      Add grated lemon peel, salt, flour, grated almonds, and 1 tsp. vanilla; mix thoroughly.

3.      Place dough in bowl.

4.      Cover and chill thoroughly.

5.      When the dough is well chilled; or the next day, roll out dough to 1/8" thickness and cut with moon/crescent cookie cutter.

6.      Place 1/2" apart on un-greased baking sheet.

7.      Bake in preheated 375° oven for 8-10 minutes.

Icing:

1.      While cookies bake, combine confectioner's sugar, vanilla and water.

2.      Spread over the tops of cookies while still warm, but not too hot, as icing will melt.

3.      Thin with additional drops of water if glaze is too thick.

4.      Allow cookies to cool.

Yield:

1.      10 dozen cookies

Wassail (Non-Alcoholic) Recipe

Ingredients:

o       2 quarts apple juice

o       2 1/4 cups pineapple juice

o       2 cups orange juice

o       1 cup lemon juice

o       1/2 cup sugar

o       1 (3-inch) stick cinnamon

o       1 tsp. whole cloves

Directions:

1.      Combine all ingredients in a Dutch oven; bring to a boil.

2.      Cover, reduce heat, and simmer 20 minutes.

3.      Uncover and simmer an additional 20 minutes.

4.      Strain and discard cinnamon and cloves.

5.      Serve hot.

Yield:

1.      3 quarts