Lost and Confused

Why does life and everything that comes with it have to be so damn hard?  The constant whispers coming from all around us is hard enough.  But why is it, that we all have to go through so much shit and misery before we truly find our happiness?  Its bad enough that we are all falling apart and that we are looking for a purpose to still go on with our lives and hold on to what we have left.  Still breathing through these hollowed bones of ours, still trying to survive.  Granted, we all have been through so much and for what?  We have everything to loose and nothing to gain, but all we want is to heal and somewhere to belong.  Misery and happiness can't sustained in the same space, one has got to give.  Nothing in our life seems to go right, it just seems like everything that we try to do or say, falls apart.  Sometimes, it feels like we just don't know what to do anymore.  Maybe, we are asking for too much when we ask for so little.

There's a quote, that says, "Before something great happens, everything falls apart." Right now, at this very moment, everything is falling apart. So, when will something great happen?

Sometimes, you feel like giving up and just crying. But the more you crying the less the problem will go away. Why is all of this happening to us? What did we do to deserve such crap and misery?

We just want to feel happy and just belong somewhere. Have a place to call our very own. It just seems like our lives are like a roller coaster. Always going up and down and round and round, ever going in a different pattern, its always the same damn pattern too. Will we ever get off of this roller coaster from hell? Or will we continue to be on this hellish ride until the day we die?

It just seems like nobody understands the pain and suffering your going through until they go through it themselves. Always striving to look for people just like you, so that way your never alone and not having to deal with this by yourself. Granted, everybody handles these kinds of situations differently but just knowing that someone else is going through it too, really does help.

















This blog was inspired by my own life with a little help from the following:
-Charmed, Season 6 Episode 6, Season 8 Episode 2 (These Episode's mention Sex and The City).
-Charmed, Season 8 Episode 22 (Forever Charmed).
-The Carrie Dairies
-Sex and The City
-Revenge


Phoebe Narrates in Season 8 Episode 2- Malice in Wonderland
-Maybe Piper's right, I mean if there's one thing that we've learned, its that we are being guided ... and signs always lead the way. The question is,where do you start looking for them?
-Signs, of course, can be good or bad. But they should never be ignored.
-Signs always don't mean what we think they do. They can, after all, be confusing...
-... Especially in today's world where we're constantly bombarded by them. Still it's up to us to interpret them the best way we know how. It's called survival.
-Unfortunately, waiting for just the right sign to come along can be frustrating, especially when you're in a hurry to conceive ...
-... Which is why sometimes you have to ...
-... Help make the signs come to you.
-On the other hand, some signs come to you even when you wish they wouldn't.
-And some signs, though seductive, should absolutely never be followed.
-It's not dinner ... or lunch, even. But it's not bad.
-When you're in a hurry, you can't be too picky about the signs. As long as it causes a few sparks, what more can you ask for?
-Unfortunately, not every spark is a positive one.
-Of course, in the cosmic scheme of things, signs tend to balance each other out.
-For instance, when one says "closed" ...
-... Another says "come on in."
-Sometimes signs are so obvious only a fool could miss them, and Paige is no fool.
-It's not easy starting new lives, following new signs, especially when the old ones keep getting in the way.
-Signs can come at any time and from anywhere, ...
-... But when you get one, you have no choice but to follow it, even if it leads you right into danger.
-Sometimes signs are subtle, easily missed, but if you're lucky enough to catch them, they tend to send you in the right direction.
-On the other hand, if you miss them, they can bite you in the ass big time.
-It's funny sometimes where signs lead you --
- -- Rarely where you thought you'd go, but always where you belong.
-In Paige's case, though she realized that being a cop wasn't her cup of tea, being with a certain cop was.
-For Piper, the only sign she really needed was the one that reminded her she wasn't alone.
-As for me, I discovered that, just like Alice, no matter how wild the ride, signs will sometimes lead you right back to where you started from ... changed, different ... but ... home.
-And they all lived happily ever after ...